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Name: Liz
Birthday: 2/25/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: acting, reading, hanging out w/ friends, shadow box, a girl named craig, singing, harry potter, finding nemo, the lion king, les miserables, wicked: the life and times of the wicked witch of the west, the miracle worker, footloose, chatting, friends, that 70s show, lord of the rings, simple plan, yellowcard, the all american rejects, guys, random stupidity, randomness, individuality
Expertise: well...what do you want me to be good at? ;)
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AIM:  drkstar695
Member Since:
4/1/2004
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| ...so...the last month in summer was fun...
...saw wicked...IT WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!!
...met this wonderful guy (jon), we were going out...it was great...i mean...well...yah...twas good...but jon's moving to florida in a couple months so now we're just friends...it kinda sux...kinda really hurt...but whatever...i'm getting over it...but it'd b nice to hang out again b4 he moves...cuz i'm gonna miss him a lot...
...currently: single...save me plz!!!
...school started 2 days ago...boring... | | |
| i'm sad
ok....so a few weeks ago...went to downtown arlington w/ some friends...thats when i met jon...
...ok so we start going out...we both knew he was gonna move to florida...but that wasn't supposed to be till next summer...now he's moving in a couple months....
...he told me last night and he said he wants to be just friends...it sux cuz i really like him...i mean...no offense to my ex-boyfriends...but of the 3 i've had...jon has been prolly the best...i mean...we really like eachother...a lot...and since we started going out...it's felt like i'm indestructable...nothing could hurt me, nothing could make me sad...but it ended last night...i didn't sleep very much...i cried...feeling numb...it's all a blur...i dunno...i guess it's better that we stop dating now rather than later...cuz then it'd be even harder to see him go away...but it still really hurts...
...last night sucked...but tonight should be fun...party at steves...so it shall be fun | | |
| ...one year today...
i'm not sure how i feel...
...i'm torn between a state of calm tranquility or an emotional breakdown...
...heavenly bliss or deepening sadness...
...my life seems to be spiralling down...yet at the same time...i'm floating on a cloud...
...torn between a road of denial...a road of ignorant joy...when walking down this narrow worn down gravel path, you follow the footsteps of those who have taken it before me...you can see the foot prints they have left behind...forever their footprints shall remain engraved into this narrow path...on this path...you see only what you will admit you see...and what you wish not to see...shall be invisible to your eyes...shielded from the truth, you are invincible...nothing can harm you, for the dark evils that the world holds shall be forever unknown to you unless you happen to stray from the safety of this gravel trail of denial...this trail which protects you from all pain, physical or emotional, you shall not experience any pain if you follow this path....
...torn between denial...and the thick, darkness of the mysterious woods...there is no path to follow...footprints imprinted into the ground...but none make a path, they are scattered, some footprints gradually start to drag down...deeper and deeper into reality, into the terrible, brutal truths that this world is made up of...the truth of murder, rape, robbery, abuse, battery, all of the pains which the sweet path of denial would have protected you from...yet once you have strayed from that path of innocence...you can not turn back, for you are lost, unable to find your way back to the clear path which you once walked...you cannot once again deny what is going on in our world...no longer can you deny all the suffering, agony, despair, and pain that everyone must go through...you are no longer innocent, you have become dirty...unpure...you can't deny that which is around you...you cannot pretend that there is nothing wrong...you can't just block out the young prostitute at the street corner, abandoned by her family, and, having nowhere else to go, she has resorted to selling herself to support her young daughter...it is now clear to you that your friend has been abused by someone, you can't believe their stories explaining that they "fell" and hurt themselves, you see that they have been beaten, abused, and that this pain they are going through is much worse than it appears...you can't ignore all the terrible murderous diseases that are killing thousands every day...your eyes are no longer shielded from all of the hatred whether based on sex, age, race, beliefs, profession, culture, or any other discriminations...you can't ignore the thousands of homeless, the thousands of starving children, so young, so innocent, yet their eyes have seen so much hurt, so much pain...it is now that you realize that the world is somewhat of a prison...and that everyone is somehow a victim of the world...and you are willing to do anything you can to make everything better...you want to reach out to those around you and save them from this world of pain...for you have seen the earth for what it can truly be...
...these two paths both lay before you...which do you take?
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...i'm torn between hatred, rage, and yet...regret and forgiveness is in my heart...
...eternal pain...yet at the same time...i feel fine...
...crazed, psychotic insanity...yet...i can't remember the last time i felt this in control of my life...
...i feel brave and confident, yet i allow myself to shrink back into a corner...crouched over, hiding in the shadows...terrified to make a sound...
...joyous laughter...and tears of sadness and depression...
...i feel so confused...so lost...yet...i also feel as if i've been found...that i've been missing for a year...i've let things just pass me by...and i've finally been found...and now i understand better...
...i'm not quite sure...i mean...i'm so happy...yet...i also feel really sad...i don't know...
...it's like being abandoned on an island...yet i am surrounded by people who i love and care about, people who i know love me in return...friends...
...i'm not making sense...so i think i'm gonna stop...i dunno...
...well...i <3 all of you
<3 always,
xoxoxoxoxo
*~LiZZie CHiLD~*
to nerger, kati, and steve: thanx 4 coming and hanging out w/ me ::hugs::
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| hmmm...so...
...saturday: party @ bree's house!!! that was really fun  we had food, and music, and frisbee (and bush diving for the frisbee lol)...so...yah...lots of randomness
ummm...yah...
...i wanna go write poetry or something...if it's good...maybe i'll even post it when i finish... | | |
| YoU*
1.name: elizabeth
2.nicknames: liz, lizzie
3.city and state born in: chicago illinois
4.state you live in now: illinois
5.birthdate: 2-25-89
6.astrological sign: pisces
7.school: saint viator
8.hobbies: music, acting, hanging w/ friends, acting crazy, many many random things...
9.sports that you play/enjoy: dodgeball
10.height: 5'1"
11.weight: 86
12.shoe size: 6 1/2
13.right or lefty: right
*What....*
1. What do you think of the way you look?: just ever so sexy
2. What do you think about your attitude?: ...that depends...i guess it needs a bit of work...but whatever...
3. What do you think about life after death?: i think we come back as another life form after we die
4. What do you think about karma?: exists
5. What do you think about love?: is like living a fairy tale...but it doesn't always go the way you plan
6. What do you think about fate?: "fate cannot do everything on her own...sometimes you need to give her a hand..." ~Ever After. i think that we can change fate if we try hard enough...like if you really wish for something...it may eventually come true...but it's not gonna happen overnight
7. What do you think about your self?: fun, flirty, sexy, a little psycho but it works
8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard? i think about things...and then i go get other peoples opinions when it's really bad
9. What would you give your life for?: nothing
10. What do you think about your first love?: its like riding a roller coaster for the first time...full of crazy turns, loops, curves, twists and bumps...
11. What do you think about the first person that loved you?: ...
12. What are you scared of?: ummm...a few things...
13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: not gonna be specific...but it happened july 3rd, 2oo4
14. What would life be without friends?: ...pointless and worthless
15. Without family?: hopeless and full of despair
*The Dream Side of You*
1.Do you dream a lot at night?: yes
2.Do you dream in black and white, or color?: both
3.Do you remember any of your dreams?: sometimes
4.Where is your dream make out spot?: where isn't my dream make out spot? (lol)
5.What is your dream kiss like?: AMAZING
6.What is your dream job?: acting or singing
7.Where is your dream house?: a beautiful mansion by the beach
8.Where is your dream vacation?: Italy or England
9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: something like that...i believe that dreams have meaning
*Family*
1.Parents names: Barb and Larry
2.Do you live with both of them?: yep
3.Any siblings? If so, names and ages: mike-13
4.Do you get along with your siblings?: ...sometimes
5.Do you get along with your parents?: ...most of the time yah i guess...
*Do you...*
1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: have one...haven't written in it for a while though...
2.Do you keep an organizer?: are you kidding?
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: maybe...but then u get to know the person...and it's like...yah...ummm...this is so not what i expected...no not gonna work...
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: i believe that everyone has at least one soul mate out there...but they have to be lucky enough to find them
5.Do you believe in god?: i believe that there are forces more powerful than humans out there...i believe in various things...lets put it that way
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: depends
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: sure it helps
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: somewhat yah
9.Do you believe in yourself?: sometimes
10.Do you shower daily?: yah
11.Do you like this survey so far?: meh
12.Do you like the person that sent you this?: i found it =P
13.Do you cry easily?: ::breaks into fits of tears:: WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN TO ME??? ::sobs:: ...ok seriously...i guess...if things get seriously bad
14.Do you believe in Heaven?: no
15.Do you believe in hell?: no
-my personal opinion: heaven and hell are just threats used to force good behavior on people...like...if you are good and don't sin...you go to heaven...but if you do sin...you go to hell...heaven and hell are just made up to scare people, kinda like the boogie man, or michael jackson...heaven and hell are "meaningless phrases in our society, like "ramalamma ding dong" or "give peace a chance" (~Homer Simpson)
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: yep
*Favorites*
1.favorite day of the week: friday/saturday
2.favorite ice-cream: popsicle
3.favorite movies: fox and the hound, little rascals, princess bride, ever after, beauty and the beast, cinderella (w/ brandy), aladdin, lion king, sleepy hollow, interview with the vampire, rocky horror picture show, anchorman, dude, where's my car?, who framed roger rabbit...i have too many favorites to keep going...
4.favorite actors: ashton kutcher, johnny depp, and others
5.favorite actresses: christina ricci, sandra bullock, and others
6.favorite quote: "hakuna matata" "there's no crime in giving yourself over to absolute pleasure"
7.favorite songs: so many
8.favorite music groups: to list a few...yellowcard, something corporate, blink 182, good charlotte, and so many others
9.favorite music singers: pretty much anyone who doesn't totally suck
10.favorite holiday: halloween, xmas or vday
11.favorite season: summer!
12.favorite colors: sparkly colors, black, gray, and neon colors
13.favorite flowers: don't have one
14.favorite book: Wicked
15.favorite school subject: ...summer vacation
16. favorite musical: Wicked, Rent, West Side Story, Les Miserables, and a couple others...
*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1.Baseball: ...no opinion...
2.Jeff: first crush...in summer camp...long long time ago...
3.Dog: PUPPY!
4.Warm apple pie: yummy
5.Socks: feet?
6.Fish: smelly
7.Nail: bang
8.Amanda: o'neill
9.Swimming: ooh...hot boys at the pool!!!
10.Bologna: cheese better
11.Giant Eagle: tweety is cuter
12.A nun: ...meh...church...
13.The # 69: so kinky
14.School: hell
WHICH OF YOUR FRIENDS...
6.Is the funniest: ...not sure...
7.Do you tell your dreams to: a few of them
8.Do you tell your fears to: nerger, dez, bree, amy, stef, kati, heather, liz, a few others too
9.Do you go to for advice: pretty much anyone who will listen
10.Have you dreamt about: who haven't i dreamt about? (note: a lot of my dreams are random things...so yah...just because you're in my dreams doesn't necessarily mean that i'm fantasizing about you or anything...)
11.Knows everything about you: ...i don't know...
12.Do you tell your secrets to: well...if i trust you...you know who you are...
13.Is the most shy: idk
14.Is the loudest: all of us put together in a group
15.Can't you live without: well...all of them!
16.Is the most trendy: stephanie r.
17.Can be the most annoying: ...ummm...i'm not naming names
18.Lives the farthest away from you: not sure
19.Lives closest to you: jenny
20.Are you most like: ...myself...does that count?
21.What do you look for in a friend?: trustworthy, fun, crazy, daring, funny, honest, good listener, someone who respects me, and trusts me...knows that i'm there for them...
*Relationships*
1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: --
2.crush: meh...
3.where does that special someone live?: somewhere over the rainbow ; )
4.things you like in the opposite sex: good sense of humor
5.when was your first kiss: kindergarten (on the cheek u perves)
6.are you a virgin: ...i'm not answering this...
7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: my ex brought me a rose before we were going out when i was sick for like...a week with bronchitis
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: both but personality is more important
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend's name: mike | | |
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